YOU CAME TO ME AGAIN

You came to me again in my sleep, as if nothing had changed between us. You wanted to talk about old movies, talk about money and how it made no sense. I had longed for the sweetness of the mundane, the steady rhythm of the dripping faucet wearing away the porcelain of the bathroom sink, dust building its imaginary creatures below our feet. Most of all, I didn't want to tell you that you were gone, slipped silently from this world while you were unaware. But I wanted you to mourn the loss of yourself, as I have, this life of chores and small, fleeting pleasure, the stubborn yet fragile body which gave you so much trouble. Of course, you were better at explaining things, as you often did for me. The words I offer are half-formed and ordinary, hovering between us, neither moving nor standing still. Last week, your sister called to remind me that everyone in our dreams is but a different version of ourselves. If this is so, I am again talking to myself, while you are wondering whether to accept my explanation, whether to answer with words, or the silence we have agreed upon for so long. 

 

THE MOON IN MY HAND

 

Today I held in my outstretched palm

a smooth, flat piece of moon stone,

black, ordinary, impenetrable,

nothing you would consider otherworldly,

nor containing even the smallest

fragment of mystery or light.

Nothing asking to be named or known,

merely a door opening into further darkness.

When my daughter was very small

she would exclaim in joyous wonder

from the balcony, "The moon! The moon!,"

greeting her nightly friend once again.

But this, this cannot be the moon,

I think. This is mere flint, shale, asphalt,

chimney soot swept and hardened

to a coin of no value here below.

No miner would bother to claim it.

But a child can easily see light where

our eyes cannot, can spark a new

world from nearly anything within reach.

We add our stone to the fish bowl

full of earthly ones, our own small piece

of moon, which we read has traveled

hundreds of thousands of miles

to be right here beside us, where we rest

and dream another day into waking.

A CALL IN THE NIGHT

 

What to make, then, of this lone bird calling out, long before the first glimmer of morning light? Maybe she has dreamed a human dream, I think, and woke in a terrible fright. Or maybe, like all of us, she just wanted to make sure that the world was still here. She hears the sound of her own voice echoing, one small proclamation among the silence of leaves and stars, her voice declaring only her own bird-ness. She feels the breeze, the air shifting imperceptibly around her song, feels the breath of something larger stirring in the dark. And she is at ease once again.