THE WATER WOMAN

 

I hold the divining rods loosely, as though they were fragile things, the slender legs of something wounded or at rest, waiting for them to tap out their simple message on the air. Divination implies a pull toward the sacred, toward the promise of water underfoot, which in turn pulls forever through itself, its source a continual mystery. The superstitious call it witchery, as though it were something sinister, though they make no argument or claims to deny it. I tread lightly, as though I were already spirit, sometimes without shoes, until I get a twitch, a signal, an indication of the hush and the hollow below. It's not magic, not in the way you might think, but merely listening with the body, the whole of it, the way our people always have. Water, after all, answers to water. On a good day, when the wind is calm and the trees drink up the light, I can lead you to the right spot. I can tell you where to begin digging, where to build. The real work -- a whole lifetime of it -- is up to you.

EARLIEST MEMORY

The first thing I can remember is water -- not a lake

or river but the rising level of it in the bathtub, the untroubled

sheen of its surface splashing over the lip of porcelain,

below which many imaginary explorers went in search of

new worlds, new creatures, new routes of escape.

I am holding my favorite rubber alligator, the one I will

soon bring with me to foster care. But not just yet.

I have locked the door, but cannot remember

doing so. I can hear voices calling on the other side,

going back and forth, but do not answer.

I like the hum and gurgle of the water. I like the quiet.

But my older sister, convinced that I am drowning,

has scaled the creaking fire escape and kicked in

the window with her flimsy summer sandals, throwing

shards of glass across the smooth tiled floor.

They are like small jewels, aquarium green at their edges;

I want to pick them up and turn them in my hands.

We are fine, but we are both in trouble now.

Though our mother does not stir from the sanctuary of

her television-blue room, the permanent dusk she cultivates,

and does not bother to unlock her door. It is not time

for us to break that door in, its frame dangling

like a broken cross, nails bent downward. Not just yet.

For now, she stays in bed as though tethered there,

drifts in an ocean that is not quite oblivion,

steered by starlight we can neither follow nor understand.

We are fine, we are; but we will be in trouble soon.

ON THE RURAL ROUTE

 

We arrived in the heat-thrum of summer

without warning, two young towheaded aliens from

the land of housing projects and junk yards

commandeered as playgrounds, spent the newly

lengthening days wandering, seeking out box turtles

and toads, garter snakes, plucking fat shining ticks

and the dark tongues of slugs from our sunburned arms

and legs, setting out on small, rickety boats, each

painted a different shade of ever-peeling blue,

puffy orange life vests smelling of must,

of those thick, watery seasons long since passed.

In the winter months, the school bus sometimes

could not get through, and the snowplows were slow

to find us, scraping their stubborn way up that

narrow curve of road to our small scattering

of cabins barely visible, the deep-frozen lake on one

side and the deep hibernating fields on the other,

furrows grown hard as gravestone beneath.

The small black-and-white TV was mostly snow

as well, only one local channel's signal strong enough

to reach our clothes-hanger antenna, giving us

the news we could easily see for ourselves.

The weighted sky hung low, the white earth rising

to meet it, growing closer from all directions,

while all else in the world became hopelessly far away,

our lessons for the day stretched out before us,

waiting to be written, before the early fall of dark.

ALL ABOUT THE BLUES

 

It's all about the blues, you remind me,

smiling, nodding in affirmation -- dry, chalky blue

of the sky brushing itself one way, then another,

unfathomable cobalt of the great lake churning below,

haint blue of my mother's Appalachian home,

undiluted sininen of the old country,

midnight rising like a bruise beneath the snow.

How many have come to greet us today,

come to call us back to the pulse and hum of this

indelible world, this never-too-familiar world,

this world of unfolding luxury, fear, and surprise?

You say there is a horizon here some days,

and sometimes we must make our own.

You say the colors we love most are the ones

we can never know by name, would not want to know,

colors that no amount of mixing could create.

Not until later, when you have painted this

landscape and placed it in my hands, its colors

still wet and shimmering -- reaching for one another,

as all things will -- do they begin to reveal

themselves, becoming at once a place I could

walk into, land or no land, sky or no sky,

a place in which I could easily drown.