TWO DREAMS

 

The first night you came to me in sleep, we were

back at the old apartment, everything exactly

as it had been nearly two decades before,

mildew seeping through its basement walls,

silverware rattling atop the refrigerator,

cats circling our feet, slipping in and out of view.

You walked into the room, already knowing

what I was thinking, explaining that you had only

brought some things to the consignment shop,

and not to worry now that you were home.

"There's something I want to show you," you said,

making your way to the kitchen, white shopping bag

at your side making a sharp, crackling sound.

The second night, your face appeared perplexed,

your smile sheepish and uncertain, as if you

had just begun to realize the absence of your body,

the dusty amber sunlight softening the edges

of your elbows and shoulder blades.

You were frail, as you were the last time I saw you,

seemingly growing smaller before my eyes.

You said you didn't know what had happened,

that you only remembered falling asleep

in the same familiar bed we once had shared,

only to wake in this shadowland, land of in-betweens

which you never claimed to believe in.

This time when you turned, I meant to speak,

but instead awoke against my will.

Now, the days are rainy, the weeks stretching

into months, and the months into a greater silence.

You have not returned, though I am still here

in the next room, among the dust and the bookshelves,

waiting to see whatever it is you have found.